MEMORIES OF YOU

 I got all these memories faded of you
With me being faded with you
Late night sessions, early morning encores,
I'm sure you reminisce on this too.

No Hey, Hello, How are you?
I just came through the door and spread you,
Ate you 'til you were shaking, squirming, running, squirting,
Then looked up and asked...."so what's new?"

Sheets were wet with not only sweat,
You were soaking while we were sexing to some Keith Sweat.
Sat on my dick and watched me like you were ready, set,

But you didn't know that it was time to go.

Love how your juices overflowed,
Love how you were all over my wooden floor,
Taking all of my wood, 'cause you weren't ever saying no.

You climaxed, we laid back and I watched your body glow...

Faded memories of what used to be,

Waiting patiently 'til you get back to me.

So we could get into, what we were into,

So we could re-write our freaky history.

PLAYBOY

 Fuck love and all that mushy shit,

Clearly it means nothing so what's the point of it?

Bring the cookie, let me treat it, eat it, please it and get it over with

And other than that, get to stepping.

Cause I...

I gave my all to one woman,

And that one woman dissed me.
That one woman looked me dead in my eyes
And said “Hey! Goodbye! Don't miss me!”

Seriously?!

After all we've been through?
After all we've shared?
After she had no one,
And I'm the only one that cared?

Damn. I never imagined, I never feared of this day
In my mind we were growing, now she's going away.
Saying it was just a season and there's a reason, but fuck's sake,
What happened to being in love, all I'm feeling is hate.

But look, I'm still fighting like a soldier
Suave don't even do it, don't turn into that old person.

While she's over there entertaining fuckboys...

Looking on, sometimes I wish I was still a playboy.

ALONE

Hello from the other side,

Can you hear me outside? 

Emotions changing, rearranging,

Damn what's going on here inside?

Thinking to myself, within myself,

Trying to find help but who cares?  

On second thought if I call...never mind,

I'll just stay deep within my fears. 

Late nights watching you lie in bed 

Searching for your truth

But found false promises instead.

Now I'm sitting here waiting by the phone, 

I'd give anything to hear your tone.

Wondering will I ever? But who knows?

For now I'll just stand here alone,

 Remembering the day when everything went wrong.

DEAR SOMEONE

I'm looking for the simple minded

Caring, kind and

Loving, faithful,

Loyal...all in! 

I'm searching for someone to love, 

Someone to trust,

Someone to hold,

Someone to know. 

Who's not fixed on the premise

Of materialistic things,

Who's not pressed by society's morals,

Just impressed by my being.

I want my heart to skip beats      

Every time we speak,

My mind should lose focus

When you smile at me.

My eyes should stare

At your perfect imperfections,

Captivated by your beauty,

And your angelic nature.

You give me....

Someone to love,

Someone to trust,

Someone to hold, 

Someone to know....

And I won't let you go.

ALL CARDZ

I'm gonna write what's in my heart
Don't give a fuck who's fuckin' with it
So I start...here lies the pain,
Peek the scars that remain,
When wars of words blew up like grenades

And friends and enemies are now all the same.

False hopes, shattered dreams,

They seem to be a constant for me.

Lost the faith that was inside of me,
Tears run down my cheeks over the memories.

But people will see the smiles and the laughter,
Not knowing what goes on the moments after.

Cause the people who were right there left from beside you,

Even though they're subliminally fucking wit' you.

They say don't worry even though they do it,

They no longer say the words that you're used to hearing.

Even though you do right they say you're wrong so screw it,
Just turn back the hands of time...forget about it.

All cards on the table, jokers included.
Humble always, though they hate you.
They will not trust you but...true you stay.

Even when the chips are down...stay you.  

LOST ONE

Hurting, thinking about my baby,
Maybe if she or he stayed,
I would become a better me.

That was my offspring,
Oh the joy he'd bring,
The little feet, little fingers,
I imaged creating that little being.

If she were here I'd look at her mom,
Smile and tell her “she looks just like you.”
Hold them both in my loving arms,
And tell them that I'd never leave you.

The pain inside causes my soul to cry,
Water running dry from within.
My outer appearance is pure bravado,
Lost one, lost me, feels like a whirlwind.

EMPTY

Not fueled enough with emotions,

No charge left in my battery,
This emptiness inside of me

Brought out another side of me.

See I'm watching for the time,
That you might pass me by,
Every second looking at the minutes,

Where our love was well defined.

Memorabilia of you and I

Was etched in my mind at one point in time,

'Til that breaking point when we broke,

Now that point is killing us inside.

Side by side we used to ride along,

Now my heart is cold like ice.
Put those cubes in my liquor...
Toast to this wretched life.

TRUST ISSUES

Trust Issues....
When she says this yet did that...hmm
When he gives in then fights back...damn
When she text's you when next to him...mhmm
When he kisses you with thoughts of Kim...

Trust Issues....
Like me giving you that 100 shit,

Only for you to turn around and withhold some shit.

Like damn what I gotta do for you to be legit?

What will you do to prove you're not counterfeit?

Trust Issues....

Listening to your words, but watching your eyes,
Boo I'm telling the truth, yet still I'm seeing the lies.
Seeing the smile for the other guy between the lines,
And I lose my mind probably for 100^th time.

Trust Issues....

Give and take they say, but I need guidance,
And I hope those messing minds up, get a clear conscience.
I pray that every day will be different,
If not...get ready for the loudest silence.

AWAITING THE DAY

 Time is of the essence

And your presence I admire.

Your lips are something special

And they're something I desire.

Your thoughts are captivating,

Mind-blowing some may say,

Your eyes look at my heart

And they see my loving pain.

Your passion for the arts

Is exotically intoxicating,

You are a masterpiece

And baby I am waiting.

MAMA

Lord, you blessed me with a mother that cares.

You blessed me with a mother with no fear.

Only to you she fears cause she knows you,

A jealous God you are so she shows you...

That she is walking in faith and not by sight,

She walks in love and not to fight.

I hug her with a warm heart...

I love her now as I did at the start.

My inception was her connection,

My protection was her motivation.

Safe in her arms she made sure,

Blessed with your love forevermore.

INSOMNIA

 11:35 p.m.

What is she thinking about?

Is she sleeping on her left or right side?

Is she dreaming about what we've got?

Is she snuggled up tight tonight?

1:18 a.m.

I should sleep I mean really,

Later today I will be busy.

Meetings, parents, call me crazy,

I can't help but think about my lady.

2:36 a.m.

Tick Tock, Tick Tock,

She loves me, she loves me not.

Time seems stationary, I'm like a nomad,

Quite sad because like Jimmy, She is all I got.

3:42 a.m.

“Toss one, Toss two” what's on her mind?

“Toss three, Toss four” I hope it's the same as mine.

I hope she's okay, I can't wait to hear her.

Please wake up so I can tell you I love you.

5:59 a.m.

OK! Snap out of it! You know she loves you,

You know she will be there when you wake.

Ready for your embrace, love, and grace,

Ready to give you all she has, just have faith.

6:05 a.m.

Before I go, let me call and see if she's up,

See if I can hear her angelic voice,

Hopefully, it's no noise, I mean she does have the choice,

“It's ringing......” She picks up........

LOVE IN THE DARK

Why are we fighting?

Why does our love for each other be clouded by

The minor issues that are forgotten the day after?

We say things that hurt each other,

then say sorry and boom,

Back into each other.

Finding it hard to understand why we bicker and fuss,

When that shit shouldn't even matter.

See we are what really matters,

And that's the way it should be,

You and I against the world,

Writing our own history.

So come here baby girl,

Let me love you just right,

Kiss your forehead,

Look in your eyes and then tell you good night.

And don't you worry,

I will be here when you wake up later,

In my arms, on my chest,

Where we're in our perfect forever.

ART

Time is of the essence when in your presence,

You lie in the bed, showing off your presents.

Laced in nothing but your skin,

I stare and then dive in.

Pablo Picasso on your body,

You look back, and grin.

Fingers along you...caressing,

Tongue within you...relaxing,

Soothing the mind with these fine lines

Of love and senseless romancing.

Tonight is the night if you didn't know,

The way your body art starts to glow,

Showing off your curves...the perfect flow,

Back arching...that's the perfect show.

I'm painting the perfect picture of us,

So how deep do you want me to go?

Slight lust...deep thrusts?

Or would you prefer it slow?

Bed, floor, counter top, door?

Couch, appliances, maybe something more?

See this art is only for our eyes,

Our bodies, our lives.

Michelangelo like, our art thrives,

And this passion, it won't die.

LOVE ACTUALLY

I love your lips when they’re wet with wine
And red with a wild desire;
I love your eyes when the love-light lies
Lit with a passionate fire.

I love your arms when the warm white flesh
Touches mine in a fond embrace;
I love your hair when the strands enmesh
Your kisses against my face.

Not for me the cold, calm kiss
Of a virgin’s bloodless love;
Not for me the saint’s white bliss,
Nor the heart of a spotless dove.

But give me the love that so freely gives
And laughs at the whole world’s blame,
With your body so young and warm in my arms,
It sets my poor heart aflame.

So kiss me sweet with your warm wet mouth,
Still fragrant with ruby wine,
And say with a fervor born of the South
That your body and soul are mine.

Clasp me close in your warm young arms,
While the pale stars shine above,
And we’ll live our whole young lives away
In the joys of a living love.

ALL I NEED

You taught me how beautiful life is,
Everything from your words, your touch, your kiss.
You gave me hope, you gave me love,
And I know you were sent from heaven above.

The way you showed me the person I could be,
It's something you, and only you would see.
You were always different and unique,
But I never guessed it was me you would seek.

How someone like me would end up with someone like you,
I honestly don't believe it, it cannot be true.

But it is, and I know every day,
That I have YOU, and it's needless to say
You've made my life beautiful and taught me how to live.
To show you how much I'm grateful, anything I'd give.

So thank you for coming into my life.
In doing so you've taken away the sorrow and strife.
You put a smile on my face and a skip to my stride
And I know you'll always be there by my side.