ALL CARDZ

I'm gonna write what's in my heart
Don't give a fuck who's fuckin' with it
So I start...here lies the pain,
Peek the scars that remain,
When wars of words blew up like grenades

And friends and enemies are now all the same.

False hopes, shattered dreams,

They seem to be a constant for me.

Lost the faith that was inside of me,
Tears run down my cheeks over the memories.

But people will see the smiles and the laughter,
Not knowing what goes on the moments after.

Cause the people who were right there left from beside you,

Even though they're subliminally fucking wit' you.

They say don't worry even though they do it,

They no longer say the words that you're used to hearing.

Even though you do right they say you're wrong so screw it,
Just turn back the hands of time...forget about it.

All cards on the table, jokers included.
Humble always, though they hate you.
They will not trust you but...true you stay.

Even when the chips are down...stay you.  

LOST ONE

Hurting, thinking about my baby,
Maybe if she or he stayed,
I would become a better me.

That was my offspring,
Oh the joy he'd bring,
The little feet, little fingers,
I imaged creating that little being.

If she were here I'd look at her mom,
Smile and tell her “she looks just like you.”
Hold them both in my loving arms,
And tell them that I'd never leave you.

The pain inside causes my soul to cry,
Water running dry from within.
My outer appearance is pure bravado,
Lost one, lost me, feels like a whirlwind.